{"id":190,"date":"2022-11-04T08:45:29","date_gmt":"2022-11-04T08:45:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sarahcledwynblog.com\/?p=190"},"modified":"2022-11-04T08:45:29","modified_gmt":"2022-11-04T08:45:29","slug":"in-the-gap","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sarahcledwynblog.com\/index.php\/2022\/11\/04\/in-the-gap\/","title":{"rendered":"In the Gap\u200b"},"content":{"rendered":"<article>\n<header>Sometimes our inner leanings take us to difficult places. \u00a0It is extremely challenging to feel led in the exact opposite direction you expected and out beyond where you can imagine. \u00a0What am I doing? \u00a0Can this be right? \u00a0I know that the process of coming clear is not something I arrive at one time. \u00a0I move into that space of trust and then I get scared again and move back out.<\/p>\n<figure aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-111\"><figcaption><strong>Clarity<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>This is the middle space of our transformation when we have seen something new, or tasted something that so entices and awakens us that we are utterly changed and incapable of doing what we have always done. \u00a0But we are new in this place and have not learned the new ways. \u00a0There is no going back. \u00a0When you have tasted that fruit, you cannot un-know what is now a part of you.<\/p>\n<p>It hurts to struggle against the new vision; it hurts to try to be who we were. \u00a0And yet, we are blind and stumbling. \u00a0We are in the darkness trying to adjust.<\/p>\n<p>I have been engaged in conversation with good friends around redeeming our shadows and the monstrous forms they take on when our small selves risk\u00a0surrender and the invitation into more. \u00a0Our shadows, of course, are only broken bits of us begging to come back into the circle of our love and compassion. \u00a0I have been working with Scarcity. \u00a0She and I have been sitting with one another trying to come to terms. \u00a0I am feeding her with every kind of sincere generosity I can muster. \u00a0I am trying to let go. \u00a0I am laughing.<\/p>\n<p>She is very worried about the path I\u2019m walking. \u00a0She is very concerned about my survival. \u00a0She is wise. \u00a0I won\u2019t survive. \u00a0This form is morphing into something else that I cannot envision. \u00a0What I know is the inner leading that has tasted something wild and sweet is driving me out of all convention. \u00a0I am being led by something much larger than myself and It wants all of me without exception. \u00a0And I am consumed with this unruly desire to give all of me to It.<\/p>\n<p>Yes to Life. \u00a0Yes, even though I am aware I have no idea the particulars of that consent. \u00a0I only know the call and it is taking all of me to follow.<\/p>\n<\/header>\n<\/article>\n<section>\n<header>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/header>\n<\/section>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sometimes our inner leanings take us to difficult places. \u00a0It is extremely challenging to feel led in the exact opposite direction you expected and out beyond where you can imagine. \u00a0What am I doing? 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